It’s amazing how much opinions can change over time.
It’s crazy to think how much our bodies can change with time.
Sometimes I’ll read through an old post of mine, and it will take me back to that very moment when I first wrote it. So determined and so set in my beliefs at the time. I can still feel it as if it were yesterday.
But with time comes new experiences – many of which have slowly changed many of my views.
One of which is running while training for a competition.
Right now I am in the middle of my training program for Boston. It hasn’t been as easy as it used to be. This time is by far than any other marathon I’ve trained for – that’s including my training for Boston back in 2011. My body is tight, but not in the right way. 😉 It’s tired and beat down, and already it’s ready for a break. I continue to remind myself I’m almost there; I just need to hold on for a little while longer.
While I have my marathon this spring, my Fall has opened up. I transferred my New York City marathon registration to next year, so that will be 2014 for me.
While I could and I still might leave this Fall open, there is a growing part of me who wants to compete again this Fall. Mind you I haven’t been on stage since May of 2010. That feels like forever ago. It’s been a long time. Yet, one of my goals was to be on stage when in turned 40. However that year I was too busy training for Boston for the first time and then found I was on the beginning end of some health issues, so I let that “other” goal of mine be put on the back burner.
Here I am, 42, and I am again thinking of competing. Should I do it will it be my last one? I don’t know. Could be. But maybe not; it’s too early to tell.
But as I’ve been playing with the idea of competing again, I’ve also been thinking of all the things I will do differently this time. It will be a completely different experience. I don’t ever want to be as striated, stringy, and as flat as I was the last time I was on the stage. At the time I didn’t see it, but now looking back on pictures and remembering how I felt, I know that’s now how I want to look. I remember last time my goal was to get my abs as tight as possible. They are always the most difficult for me. I was able to come in with a night tight tummy but along with it came an overly lean competitor. I did not look the way I should have.
Evaluating what I did back then I’ve arrived at a few conclusions. First and formost my diet will have to change from what it was last time. That’s a no-brainer. I never starved myself, and at the time I felt my diet was well balanced, but it definitely wasn’t enough for my body. That will change. I could write an entire blog entry on that alone.
But one of the other most obvious changes I’ll be making is running – or should I say “not running.” I’ve always felt you need to do what you enjoy most. If you enjoy running, run. If you enjoy lifting, lift. If you enjoy doing both while competing, then by all means do both. I still do feel that way to a degree, but that’s only if you are willing to admit up front that you are selling yourself short with both by doing both at the same time.
I remember against the will of my trainer(s) dozens of mile each week during contest prep. Did it feel good and refreshing to run? Most definitely. It was my solace and my time to get out. I didn’t really do it with the thought to lose weight. I did it because I truly loved it and it came so easy to me.
But by running did I hinder my potential with muscle gain and ultimately on stage? Without a doubt.
I don’t think I ever had the potential to really take figure to the next level, but I do believe had I not included so much cardio in the years before when I was competing, I would have stood a much better chance holding on to muscle and delivering a fuller more proportionate me on stage.
So now as I am looking at my end game – possibly this Fall – I’ve already decided this time will be different. I still haven’t decided who I’ll work with to help bring me in for the show. (I’m open to suggestions). I want to go in to this season eating substantially more healthy food so I have a higher threshold to work with before cutting, and I will follow his/her advice to a tee when it comes to cardio. I fullly expect not to run for several months, and I’m okay with that.
Should I compete I hope to bring this 42 year old body of mine to the stage in its best shape ever. I want to look MY best. I could care less about my competition. I simply want to redeem myself.
And that will likely include no running.
XO – Momma